I've lost the faith.

So I think that we're pretty much not talking anymore, you're off "exploring" the world meeting your otherguy friends being a "friendly person" bullshit. Bullshit bullshit bullshit. I'm rethinking all the things I said to you, I really meant what I said and I wasn't just saying it to "get in your pants" it was true emotions. But now it seems like all you want me to do is take back all the words I said to you and throw them away. You make yourself look so stupid, it's so unnattractive right now, I can't even explain it. I do so much for you and you literally give me nothing in return. You say "It can't be lovey dovey, I miss you all the time" but when is it ever like that, when you're with me you make it seem like nothings happening at all and you're really convincing me. Thanks a fuckin' lot.