I fucked up, I know I did. I thought I could keep that my own little secret but I guess you had to find out sooner or later. I'm just upset that you had to find out the way you did. I know I didn't tell you from the start, I don't know why I kept it in for so long. I didn't want to lose you, guess that doesn't matter anymore. I've already lost you, I want you back but you want to forget everything about me. Hearing that made me just want to give up. I'm not going to tho, weve obviously gone through too much to just give up now. I'm not sure if it'll ever be the same but we both have to put in an effort. I don't even understand why everyones taking this out of hands, this was before we started talking and all your dumbass friends are saying I should have treated you better. If you believe what they're saying then idk what to do with you. I did so much for you and you wouldn't have done half of the things I did for you. If you're just gonna have your friends brainwash you be my guest. I'm not what you want anymore, but maybe I'm still the one that understands you the most.